Musings { There's a writer inside me somewhere

I just need to find him. I started this blog a few years ago to partially capture my random ramblings that friends said should be shared with the world and as an effort to help me write better. I've also been keeping a personal journal since November 2004.

I'm still not a writer, let a lone a good writer. Part of it is that I don't have a focus or a muse. I tried non-fiction political stuff with the blog, but that is more just venting of my internal anger. I've written some stuff that others have called 'epic poems', mainly around the start of the un-life of my WoW character. I can write poetry (I used to have a whole collection when I was younger, I bound them together and gave them to Nerdwife when I was woo-ing her), but I've forgotten them and are lost to time (unless Nerdwife can find them in storage somewhere, she has all the originals and onlys :). I like poetry, writing it more than reading it. But my poetry is just more like this:

hook_into_stream_of_consciousness()
insert_poem_header()
capture random thoughts()
export(random(media))
stop_capture()
unhook_from_stream_of_consciousness()
publish()
walk_away()

Its never been called good. I don't write it for praise though, I often write it for myself or for friends.

I thought about making movies, but I watch (and was inspired by) Northern Misfit, but with my current spot in life, I don't have the energy (or the money) to make films. Critique them...hell yes (and post the reviews here if I feel like it). Make them, no.

I'm starting to read more, and to read outside of my preferred areas (political non-fiction, sci-fi, fantasy) and have delved deeper into philosophy, general fiction, and poetry. I've also revisited the greats like Mark Twain. I can appreciate the excellent writing, but I can only recreate what others have done before. Not my own creations.

I know writing is just do it. And do it again. And again. And again. Like with almost anything, practice makes perfect.

What gives me heart is, even though I do not know if I have a novel in me or will ever be a good writer, some truly bad writers (both technically and plot-wise) have published.