9.26.2005

[Musings] Depression, the mistress of happiness.

Depression.

Depression, in everyday language, refers to any downturn in mood, which may be relatively transitory and perhaps due to something trivial. This is differentiated from clinical depression which is marked by symptoms that last two weeks or more and are so severe that they interfere with daily living.

In the field of psychiatry the word depression can also have this meaning but more specifically refers to a mental illness when it has reached a severity and duration to warrant a diagnosis. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) states that a depressed mood is often reported as being: "... depressed, sad, hopeless, discouraged, or 'down in the dumps'."

In a clinical setting, a depressed mood can be something a patient reports (a symptom), or something a clinician observes (a sign), or both.


Depression is the mistress, the secret lover of happiness. It is the yang of ying. The darkness to the light.

9.20.2005

[Image] You will not see this in American media.


This graphic image found on the BBC News website I think illustrates the hell of war and what our soldiers are going through. Granted this is a British soldier, but our troops face no less of a threat.

Full story here.

Thanks to the Bush Administration, our media has been 'sanitized' of any offending images. We will not see the horror and cost of war. We will not see the flag draped coffins. And if it wasn't for the efforts of media (by that I mean CNN's legal action against the gov't for the right to show these images), we would never see the images of the dead in New Orleans.

Just because we do not see the bad things that happen in this world, it does not mean that bad things don't happen. Wake up America.

9.19.2005

[Yarrr!!!!!] Shit, almost forgot...

Today be talk like a pirate day all you sons of scuvious dogs!

Buckets-o-blood on me poop-deck!

Best pirate-ninja connection...EVAR!!!!

Right here.

[Musings] Why I can't piece two sentences together.

I've been suffering from writers block again, severely. I don't know why, I have a lot of pent up rants and observations crying to be birthed unto the world. I think it might be the fact I have worked almost everyday for two weeks and am thoroughly exhausted. It might be because I was dissed by a vendor at work (revenge is a dish best served chilled, with a cheese and cracker tray). But mostly I think it might be because it is a full moon.

Now before you laugh, I've been doing an observational experiment over the last few months and my productivity does go down the 3 days around and during a full moon. I get absent minded, I loose my ability to form cogent thoughts and sentences, and I make stupid mistakes. Now, this could be because I seem to notice it and hence psych myself out, but other strange things happen during a full moon. Systems at work break in strange ways, all by themselves.

I dunno, maybe I am going insane.

9.15.2005

[Poem] 0xdeadbeef

e_ddi_get_dev_info: Illegal major device number <-1>NOTICE: VxVM vxio V-5-0-74 Cannot open disk ROOTDISK: kernel error 6

Cannot mount root on /pseudo/vxio@0:0 fstype ufs

panic[cpu3]/thread=10408000: vfs_mountroot: cannot mount root

0000000010407970 genunix:vfs_mountroot+70 (10437400, 0, 0, 104732fa, 80, 14)
%l0-3: 0000000010437400 000000001043ab20 000000323e000000 0000000010437608
%l4-7: 0000000000000000 00000000104139e8 00000000000c17bf 00000000000017bf
0000000010407a20 genunix:main+8c (104101f8, 2000, 10407ec0, 10408030, fff2, 1005
41a0)
%l0-3: 0000000000000001 0000000000000001 0000000000000015 0000000000000f69
%l4-7: 000000001042a1c8 00000000104791b8 00000000000da100 0000000000000100

skipping system dump - no dump device configured
rebooting...

SC Alert: Host System has Reset

9.14.2005

[Musings] FEMA, the Supreme Court, and all

I read an interesting article by Steve Perry at City Pages (you can see it here).

I think he makes good points.

I wish the media would quit chest thumping about their coverage of Hurricane Katrina. Yes, they grew a spine and reported the atrosity. But don't give up now, challenge the talking points be persistant. Expose the administration for the frauds they are and keep uncovering their incompetencies and inadequacies as leaders.

Its not too late.

9.01.2005

[Musings] Got nothing.

Been exhausted.

Turned 30.

Had a meat-coma.

Can't find a damn company to haul away a washer and dryer in Rochester.

Thinking about World of Warcraft.